Lycka Till

I got accepted by Columbia University yesterday! It is not my first choice school, but it gives me hope that I will be accepted by Hunter College (my first choice). I know. You are wondering how I am going to pay for graduate school. F-I-N-A-N-C-I-A-L A-I-D. Even though Hunter is way cheaper than Columbia or Fordham, I wonder if they will give me a much worse financial aid package. That's what happened with undergrad. The public schools gave me shitty packages and the private schools gave me almost a full ride. I dunno what to do. I will sort it out over the weekend and call Columbia Financial Aid on Monday. How can I truly say yes or no to Columbia unless I know how much F.A. they are giving me...and how much Hunter will give me (if they accept me?) Woe is me!

I got another temp assignment that starts tomorrow. This one is actually supposed to last two months (if I don't get myself dumped from it somehow). It's at one of NYC's music venues. I would be doing Microsoft Office stuff. Nothing fancy or fun. I don't care about fancy or fun. I care about steady paycheck and non-abusive work environment and decent commute. That's all I ask for. The commute would be a tad bit over an hour, and I would not have to change trains. Beautiful!!!

Wish me luck...I tend to cry under lots of stress, and I have now cried twice at temp jobs due to stress. I was lucky enough to not get in trouble for it either time, but in the future, I might not be so lucky. If, at the new temp job, I feel like I am going to lose it, I must remove myself from the situation and get fresh air and calm down. I feel like such a freakoid. I live in this city full of cutthroat, cold, tough, hurrying people, and I feel like this little mewling kitten amongst the stampede. Ugh. I just cannot be all tough and thick-skinned and all of that. It's just not me. So, I must leave a really crazy situation so that I can calm down. That's the only way for me to survive.