what the fuck to do?

i'm really freaking out about where the fuck i am going to live. if i cannot find a fucking roommate, i might just get a studio apartment. the school gave me enough loans to factor about $1,500 a month for all living expenses, which is waaaaaay more than i need. well, if i'm taking out the fucking loans, and i can't find a place to live by say, the end of next week, i might just try to get a studio apartment. there are some being advertised that are the same price as rooms in 2 or 3-bedroom apartments with roommates. yeah, i'd be paying more for utilities and shit, but at least i'd have control over how i lived.

the leftist guy e-mailed me today to tell me he went with someone else. he seemed uncomfortable with me from the get-go, even though i am very friendly and personable. *sigh* well, obviously he has issues, cuz i did nothing weird or wrong.

the flakey friend-of-a-friend called me last night. i am gonna see the apt. on saturday morning. she says there are others she has seeing the apt. i hope so much that she chooses me as one of the two who sublet from her for the next 1 1/2 years!!!

the brother and sister haven't gotten back to me, but they probably won't choose me. i dunno if i'd be happy there, either. i dunno.

still no word from the temp agency. i gave up calling them. i called another temp agency that had contacted me a few months ago, and i am going to interview with them tomorrow morning. in the afternoon, i am going to columbia to the off-campus housing office and ask for help. tomorrow evening, i'm seeing another room.

ebay sales have been shitty the last two days. :(