söndag den tjugoförsta oktober

this is my new cat, katarina. behind her is blue, the bear. my friend got the idea to make me an animal friend when i lost blue on the subway. katarina came to me almost a year after blue was lost and found. katarina reminds me of blue in her facial expression and energy, and the two are the same size. my friend lives far away from me, but she made an animal friend who is a lot like blue, a bear i don't think she ever met. oh, and both animals are extremely cuddly. happy cuddle times.

i managed to get through midterms. three papers and an exam in less than one week. craziness! i continue to love school, and wish i could spend more time there. i guess i could. maybe i'll try to study there more on days that i have classes. i wish i had classes more often.

my dad's job ends at the end of the month. his job was only a 4-year-long job. he may or may not get another one where he works. i am stressed about it. if he doesn't get something else by november, he might not get to stay where he lives, and then he'll have to stay here. my sister will live with her boyfriend, and i will live in her lair with her cats, and my dad will live down here. i just hope he doesn't have to go through that. i just want him to get what he deserves: the other job.

i haven't found any special someone. there are a couple of cuties at school, but i haven't had the chance to talk to them yet. one of them wants to talk to me, i think. i really wish i'd have someone to think about, cuz my dreams are overrun by andy, the boy i loved as a child. he's the only one alive in this world that i care about in that special way. i guess that's why i keep thinking about him? it's driving me nuts. he's far away, and he has a girlfriend, and he doesn't want anything to do with me. i hope someone comes along and can be there for me like andy can't.