torsdag den tjugotredje augusti

because the guy who's been living in my future lair is trifling, i probably won't get to move until next week. i suppose it will be before the 31st, at least, since legally i have a right to be in there on september 1st. i was really hoping to be in there before orientation began on monday. fuck. now i have to juggle my mental and physical energy between orientation and moving. fucking trifling asshole below my sister. why has it taken him so long to move his ass out? he's moving to the ground floor apartment across the patio. c'mon. that's the easiest move i've ever heard of. there's no fucking reason to take so long. anyway, my roommate is back. he's been back since last saturday. we're getting along fine. i love his company. i just don't enjoy the dirtiness and roaches. just a few more days until i have my own space. and i haven't seen any roaches in my room since the last bombing. yeah, i haven't had my own space since early 2002. over 5 years of living in other people's spaces on their terms under their rules and surrounded by their things. over 5 years of not having my very own home to myself. i reveled in having my own space when i lived alone in seattle and vancouver. i LOVED it. i was such a great homemaker, especially in vancouver. i wanna totally be that in this new place. i am gonna make everything in the lair sooooo cute and pretty and cozy and functional and inviting. i am gonna make the patio really nice, too. then i am gonna invite friends over to visit and have fun. people really will come, too, seeing as it's so easy and fast to get to from midtown manhattan. when people visit new york from other places, i'll truly have a place for them to stay. i can't wait. and it will be so quiet. i will be hitting the books and studying so hard in there! :) it's so serene back there. i really can't wait. just a few days. just a few days. just a few days.

so, i'm really obsessed with bento boxes, and i look forward to making my lunch every morning to take to school or to my field assignment, and putting it in one of my cute little bento boxes. :) i can't wait to cook again. i don't cook in this roachy kitchen, but i will cook and bake so much in the new lair! i can't wait for the weather to get colder so that i can start churning out the baked goods and hearty, scrumptious meals. i can't wait. oh, and i will have all new furniture except for the bookcase that my sister gave me. i finally figured out that it's gonna work to go to ikea and get almost everything there. i'm gonna get the stuff that is made out of solid wood but isn't expensive. i have to wait til my student loans come through to get the stuff, though. i'm gonna have a futon bed (not from ikea). i'm scrimping around to have enough $ to buy it so that i'll have something to sleep on when i move in. i have have very little work these past two weeks, so money is very tight. i can't wait til the student loans come through! oh, and i found inexpensive, big rugs from crate & barrel that i'm gonna get. my lair is gonna be a shoes-off-at-the-door kind of place. i will have a swedish welcome mat. "välkommen!"